BERAKAR

Dear buku,

Dah lama saya xdgr term ni....usually,the term is used among me and my dear friends....for example;

Si A : wei,sorry ek lambat....(while displaying the most stickiest grin of all...actually referring to kerang busuk...hahaha)

Si B : lame la gak...dah berakar segale....(please be aware if that term is used or else more firing-words would smacked you out!!!!!)


conclusion is,berakar tuh menunjukkan masa yg sgt lama which very similar to me. It has been so long since I made an entry here,almost a month!!! sgt tak bagus saya ni kan? I tried so hard to commit to this blog, but it seems like the more I try, the difficult things get on me....sigh.....

However,browsing thru my friends' blogs has really motivated me to click the 'New Post' button,delivering anything that comes across my mind,without any specific motive......just like my dear sis said to me once,'a blog is where you pour everything in your mind without having to think twice '...and I am pretty sure what she means is you have to be yourself,no need of pretending to appear perfect,good with words and most of all be truthful!!! and here I am,being honest and proudly claim that this entry is motiveless which equals to senseless......SORRY for the not-so-nice-truth....


Anyway,a lot had happened lately...starting with the job,relationship,course,important decisions to be made and so many more.....kinda unbearable!! Oh!May The Almighty lead me the right path....


Talking bout' my job,the substitution period is nearly coming to end,officially on Wednesday but I have to finish it sooner than that coz I got a course to attend...so,my last day at school will be on Sunday with the students are sitting for their final exams,before their good,waited school holiday....I reckon it will be a little bit awkward of not having to do the teachings anymore since the noisiness,naughtiness,and illogical-but-funny-questions of that young,innocent and cute kiddies have been my daily routine from day 1 I was there.They are surely be part of life stories to be told later to my children....goodbye guys....May u lead a better and great life ahead and become an educated human,not just living in your beautiful dreams....pray for u....


But then, who knows I might come back there,substituting again or perhaps as a recognized teacher....who can tell that,no?
Look how motiveless this entry guys, not entirely related topics it included...hopefully,it will happen this time....no other time...or else I might be a damsel in distress by then..hahaha

So,lets put this entry to an end before any of u'd be dying out of boredom and I'll be accused to be a blogger-killer...(the senseless is turning into the crappy imaginative thoughts)


The End.......

BYE-BYE bestie!!!

Dear buku,

Sayer sgt happy coz finally I got to meet the long-lost bestie, Cik Awe deary...even going thru' quite a long delay...I'm glad it happened...zillions of thank to her for never giving up on me..I mean it,Thanks dear....
And as we chatted to each other, it was like reminiscing of our little girls,childhood memories....those days when we shared most of our dreams...bout' what we would be when we grow up, how we would dress if EVER we go to prom night(HAHAHA,yeah it's silly but trust me,its a wonderful feeling)....and not to mention the kind of guy we are interested in.....yep! we were those typical school girls that never dream anything but a mushy,fairy-tale like future
Only now, we are no longer talking on that dreamy ideas...kami dah matured okay!
But,having said that, sgt gembira kerana sgt lama tidak jumpa...as far as I could remember,last time we met was almost six years ago....kn dah kata sgt long-lost tuh!!!huhuhu....
Dia xpernah berubah, masih sorg teman yg sgt bubbly,happy-go-lucky...ader jer benda yg dia mau gelak... 1 new thing bout' her is she wears an eye-glasses now...sgt srupa dgn maknye..yeah,i know u heart ur mak,awe....
She came with her siblings whose no longer that same kiddies I know...dah besar budak2 tuh...and with the addition of little cutie Hawa Annur which happened to be just like her sis.u guys ni mcm photostat je tau...huhuhu
And,dont know why,it felt kinda relief and easy feeling deep inside because I know I never lost that bestie no matter where she's studying now (Indon tuh kire jauh ar kan?)...the same person whose I had my childhood laughters with...and I'll continue to be...alhamdulillah..
itu pasal la, malam td jumper trus sayer wat entry nih...yer,sayer tau sayer bukan blogger contoh yg akan hapdate setiap hari...heh!..nk wat camaner...
Well, hopefully the frenship between us'll never change dan kami akan selalu jumper...huhuhu

BTW, cik awe...thanks for coming eventhough tomorrow u'll catch ur flight to K.L...gud luck for ur exams...nanti nk msk clinical kn?bestnyer...
take care k!
Jumper raya nanti!
Loads of luv...

Mohon mengerti

Dear buku.....

Letih yang amat bila ketidakserupaan itu disalah tafsir....
Sedih sungguh kerana ketidak sempurnaan itu jadi musuh
Hati kecil berdetik, mana mungkin dalam dunia
Selagi yang namanya manusia mampu kena dalam segala hal

Aku bukan sang penglipurlara....
Yang bisa melagukan cerita ceria sentiasa
Aku hanya si sepi
Ditakluk derita rahsia,misteri duka
Yang mengerti mungkin setia
Yang tak endah,semakin menyasah
Membuat lelah....
Auta apa lagi perlu ku putar
Untuk membalut cela
Mengasing lukisan benar
Tampakkan yang biasa
Ingin ku laung jerih
Biar berderai letih
Ingin ku sebar risau
Biar hilang kacau
Tuhan...
Ini perlu,
agar tatihanku tegar
Jiwaku besar

*Allah s.w.t tidak akan memberi dugaan melainkan yang mampu ditanggung hambanya*

~ kisah cinonit ~

Nama penuh : Nur Illya Syazwani bt. Roslan
Tarikh lahir : 25 Jun 1986
Tempat lahir : pahang Darul Makmur
Tempat anda dibesarkan : Besut Terengganu

1.Siapakah nama kawan rapat anda sewaktu kecil?

• Nadiah Romeli (sy rs dier sgt understanding time kcik dulu....chewah...mcm beso bnar plak prob aku time tuh) tp,siyes,die sgt baik...kire a sweet innocent child la
  

2. Apakah permainan masa kecil yang anda ingat?

• Selambut/batu seremban, ting-ting, ta-tiang,yada2...
  

3.Kalau anda bergaduh dengan kawan anda..apakah kata kata yang anda nyatakan pada mereka?

• Biarla,xse doh saim nge dio....(ok,kate je la aku loser,xkesah)
  

4.Di kawasan manakah yang menjadi tempat faveret anda bermain?

aku dok quarters sekolah,jd no choice kt situ gak la aku main pun....kalo kaki aku pnjg sket,mak aku ngah mood baik,..smpai la aku ke kediaman Cik Hawa,men rollerblade...

5.Apakah cita cita anda masa kecil?

• Doktor,doktor dan doktor..(ye,aku sgt gilekan series ER dulu,skrg tukar Grey's Anatomy) hahaha

6.Apakah kartun atau rancangan tv yang anda gemari dan masih ingat sampai sekarang?

• Tomatoman, Sailormoon,DragonBall.....semue katun pn aku tgk...aku kaki t.v terkemuka...
  

7.Makanan ringan apakah yang akan anda borong di kedai?

• Cikedis yg brharga 10 sen-kaler oren,rs cm sayur (tgk, aku da didik diri aku jd vegetarian dr kecil-kecilan) huahuahua
  

8.Nyatakan seorang rakan zaman kanak kanak anda yang anda teringin sangat nak jumpa sekarang..

• Hawa Fatihah Che Mat Su (even dia tggl xbrape jauh pn dr umah aku,tp aku da xjmper dier dlm 6 tahun ni...)
  

9.Apakah gelaran anda masa kecik?

• Soya (abg aku kasi,naughty ya amat insan tuh)
  

10.nyatakan seberapa banyak rakan bloger anda yg anda ingin tau zaman kanak kanaknya..

• semua pun aku nak tau....bley wat ala autobiography kn? jd,sile la share korg nyer childhood moments ye!
  

cik ellie,"THE TAGGER"

hahahaha...mesti manusia itu gembira hentak2 kaki kerana tlah mnjd title postku...bestkn? rs cm flying2 x? hahaha lg...padan sgt la dgn minah ni yg suka memanjangkan tag miliknya ke snarai ahli di'tag' yg sentiasa sama...papepom,,,thanks ek cik ellie...i'm honoured to do so

1. Berapa umur anda?
umo sy da c manis 23 tahun & 2 bulan....

2. Anda berasal?
Pahang Darul Makmur

3. Berapa adik beradik anda? Anak yang ke? Brp lelaki n perempuan?
5 org.anak ke-2.
2 teruna
3 dara

4. Sekolah terakhir anda?
SMK tg.mahmud

5. Bila terakhir anda memotong rambut?
last month,and I bragged to everybody how in love I am with it....

6. Shampoo apa yang anda gunakan sekarang?
head & shoulders.....sayer rs ader effect angin kuat lps paki shampoo tuh....best siot...try2

7. Anda gemar menjahit? Kalau tidak nyatakan sebab
jahit manik je la....

8. Jika duduk di rumah, adakah anda suka menghias diri
pehal lak nk 'decorate' lebey2....karang mak aku tunjal kepala lak....tp,untk future husband;who knows? btol kn cik ellie

9. Apakah kerja rumah yang paling malas anda hendak lakukan?
bangun pagi...mau tido,tido dan tido lg...muahahaha

10. Soalan terakhir...bagi 5 kenangan MANIS yang tak dapat anda lupakan sampai bila bila
aiyak,,,pehal byk ngat ni....
a) sy da grad....
b) sy xpernah hilang kwn2 best sayer...
c) dpt main mata ngan org yg sy suka...hahaha....mmg aku gatal
d)feeling masa 1st time dpt music box; bntuk mesin taip,kaler purple....rs cam princess negara mn tah
e) 1st time dipanggil cikgu walau hanya jd cikgu ganti...terasa mulia,suci & wibawa gler ah time tuh

haaa...maka demikian sajelah entry ni....

jumpa lagi.....

dear buku......
yes,finally we meet up again....missing the feeling damn much....nway,hoping + praying that the feeling hanging there in a way that i'll be able to online for a long period,InsyaAllah....
tomorrow, the holy month, Ramadhan is officially around....days of fasting,nights of tarawih,dawns of sahur....gheee...i'm excited....very much....
i dont know if its only me,but i kinda have a different feeling for this special month for the muslims.ok,every muslim does feel the same way...however,personally for me Ramadhan is a month that my view on everybody change,even not a total change still,it's there...i mean people is focusing more on doing good deeds, being a little bit more considerate,tolerate almost in everything...isnt it great??? my love for Ramadhan has already bloomed....

The stories around my house would be the next best thing to tell.....(hahaha)....for sure it starts as early as the sahur begins....banging on the doors,waking up for sahur has always been the most annoying thing for Ummi and for sure,ME...then,the noons would turn into mellow and sleepy ones ...however,the faces will lighten up when it comes to 'food hunting' for berbuka...from one bazar to another bazar...Jerteh to Kg.Raja...yes,,,the adrenalin pumping is likely a must here...besides,the temptations are unbelievable...hahaha.....above all that,we are always enjoying performing the terawih,even it is rarely for us to fulfil the 21 rakaat,indeed we are looking forward for it..InsyaAllah

And this Ramadhan also a test for me as it is my first time being a teacher,okay..a subtitute one...now i am thinking to what extend my patience will be tested during this month,handling the tantrums of my students....i really need all guts in the world to be with me...pray for me...whatever happens,the holiness of Ramadhan must be uphold at any cost...i know i can do it...huhuhuhu

Well, that's a brief view and some stories to share about Ramadhan...i bet u all have the same too..more exciting and interesting...no doubt...

And tonite will be our very first nite of terawih,lets all visit the masjid and fulfill the needs and hopeful all the 21 rakaat,every night of the Ramadhan...
May it be the most meaningful month that will educate and permit us to be a better person for every month not just the Ramadhan.InsyaAllah....
Happy Fasting to all....

A.B.C

A.B.C???? sayer pom xtau naper I begin the entry with those letters.....ok..maybe because of these feelings I am having now....erm...sayer rase ; gembira + resah + berdebar + takut + geram....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! maka jadilah A.B.C like Air Batu Campur...bercampur2 smpai xleh explain...uit????Complicated ek sayer ni...sory2...mari sayer xplain naper(hamik ko,dengarla smpai naik menyampah)

GEMBIRA
Hahahaha...Ketawa dulu,bg terasa kegembiraan tuh...cpat2..hayati perasaan sayer ni...
Sayer gembira sbab ari ni Makcik Lela call sayer siang td...ha! siapa Makcik Lela tuh? Hebat bnar beliau bisa menggembirakan hati insan tuh,kan?...OK2, beliau telah jadi savior sayer kerana telah 'menamatkan' zaman penanaman hanggur sayer....Yeay2! maka sayer gumbira nih...sengih xhingat...I GOT A JOB even its only a temporary job, it cant bother me..
all hail for Yaya...chewah, sok sayer akan jadi pelita. what???!!!!! pelita????duhhhh...cubaan memetaforakan kerjaya baruku tuh...i like...i'm going to be a TEACHER,guys!!!!!! hows that???

RESAH
referring to above matter,ia telah meresahkan sayer jua...PULAK...
ye la, sayer resah kerana ini 1st time sayer yg menakutkan..GRRRRRRR..macam maner nk jd cikgu??? HeLP ME!!!! ok, even UMMI yg tercinta ku itu ialah pelita SEJARAH (heh,xsuda2)..tp sy tetap keresahan...sayer terpikir;
1). macam mana nk tgk muka murid2 ku nanti...ok,sayer tau ngan mata tapi apa bentuk pandangan sayer perlu beri, pandangan penuh kasih sayang ker(chewah,,,cm gatal lak)...,wat2 garang ker(aiyok,anak org tuh), OR blurrrrrr...
2). metadologi pengajaran aper nak pakai????...kedengaran keguruan ek!!! nyamapah..
3). truly, sayer LOST!!!!!

there you are,,,,perkara2 yg meresahkan sayer.....

BERDEBAR
errrrr....

TAKUT
eh,,,,malaslah mau xplain sebab keduanya sama jek ngan resah tuh, tp sajer sayer tambah kasi panjang sket entry nih,lgpun,prasaan sy kan bercampur,nuff said...ceh,malas punyer budak...ekekeke..semua org tau fakta tuh...

GERAM
haaaaaa,,,,,yg ni sayer perlu xplain kerana sayer mmg geram...xcayer? mari sayer kasi tau...
kegeraman ini berpunca drpd 'cik fatty' yg sibuk melekat sekeliling diri ini...alah, lemak la tuh...which equals to baju da xleh nk muat....ok2,sekrg sayer da geram sambil malu nih! TUTUP MUKA....inila akibat ke'best'an me la-la kan diri di homey sweet home....
huhuhu...cubaan menyalahkn rumah yg mmg steady innocense tuh...alahai....tetiba sayer rasa nk pecut satu kampung(buang tebiat plak ek!) bagi menghalau cik fatty sekelian..pergi2,syuh2,blah2
tu la kau,makan xhingat,time ni baru nk lari2..sob3...padan la muka ku....
tiba2 gak,sayer membuat azam untuk memanfaatkan static bike yg selama ni menjadi persinggahan baju2 n towel...hahaha...siap bajet nk cycle braper minit lg..aish...leh cayer la tuh budak tuh....
yg paling xleh blah ialah budak ni jugak telah berhasrat membajetkan jumlah butiran nasi yg akan di'ngap' oleh mulutnya...hahaha..gelak hadirin ,gelak kan dier...mmg kelakar tuh...
xper2, sayer akan berusaha kerana sayer perlu pakai baju...heh,mmg la..tidak,bukan2..sayer xnak jdi 'hulk' ewwww....sgt malu...JANGANNNNNNNNNNNNN....

ok2, kita tunggu dan lihat je nanti berjaya atau tidak 'CIKGU YAYA'...ekekeke gedik tol nk letak cikgu kt dpn tuh...doa2 kan sayer ye...erm....dah la, sayer mau iron baju yg semestinya masih muat okeh,jgn byg sayer da jadik hulk pd 1st day...nononono,,xsnonoh tuh...
xsuker2....cikgu xsuker...ekekeke

p/s: May Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad rest in peace and condolences for her family on the demise...Al-Fatihah...