THE PROPOSAL

Dear buku,

Today: Sooooo...exhausted mentally because of failure to brainstorm any inspiring

idea to construct the required proposal for Master's Degree.....ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!

HELP! help! HeLp!....

This particular hour: Even more tense, knots & whatnot developed, still fail to take any initiate step to complete the proposal....now already getting sleepy thus stopping any attempt verbally or non-verbally regrading the proposal..

heh!!!! NUMBNESS infection.....

HUJAN (bukan indie band)

Dear buku,

It is another rainy day which has hit the country mainly East Coast...not to say that I hate the rain for in a way, it brings some peaceful along with the downpour...listening to the dripping sounds chorusing to make their own music and somehow the rain managed to shed away any pain at your heart even a little bit,as in washing them...I think..

I wonder that's why I always wait for the rain to pour...so that,it could rinse away all those sad episodes in order for me to regain,getting strong enough to face another challenging day...some might say I am a fragile person...too weak to handle the drawbacks of the life...not that I didn't try people,guess there's so much to handle which makes me longing for something to avoid me weeping over....oh,RAIN is needed here...
It could also serve as substitution of tears by just looking the rain pouring before my eyes...how rain means a world to me...excuse myself for being such a pathetic, misusing the God's beautiful creation for granted...but as long as I'm not causing any harm to others,it will remain as it is...

*** I count my blessings and I push the blues away ***

~missing~

Dear buku,

Saya dah buat lagi...'menggagalkan' diri untuk tulis entry secara rutin...ampun!!!
But, too lazy to do any comical explanation or excuse...yeah2...SAYA MEMANG MALAS!!!
Anyway, suddenly missing the besties so much especially listening to certain songs that invited such emotion even more...sob3...
A result from missing those moments of idiotic , craziness , chaotic back in then student's life!!
I miss my girls so much!!! Okay, now I'm being annoying...well,please bare with it until you are told not to do so...which,NEVER!! (PLEASE BE NOTED THAT THE AUTHOR CURRENTLY IS HAVING A SERIOUS AILMENT CALLED SYNDROME INSTABILITY)
Above all that, the entry is meant to share 1 of the songs that touch my heart very well...so I should just do so...
The song title is " Hold On" sung by Michael Buble,a major huge fan of him lately besides the ailment just now..so,here it is guys...May you enjoy it as much as I do...


p/s: to my girls out there,anywhere you are,may find only the blisfulness in every moment of your life...do cherish the memories shared together!! Take Care...

HELLO

Dear buku,

A BIG Hello I must say for the failure to do frequent entries meaning I haven't visiting the buku for quite a time.My bad...apologize...but still,I really can't promise making post as much as I want to....too many barriers(eleh,totally denial walhal aku yg malas,heh)

Anyways,there were many things could be my subjects for the post....unfortunately,(again,a fragile defence...LOSER)..didn't feel like talking about them...
Well,enough about the distracted story of how lazy I am...(ESCAPISM)

Today, I went to a wedding boutique along with my friends,Cik Mimi and Cik Ellie.Mind you,I am not getting married if that popped in your mind!!! Its Cik Mimi,she was the one that will get married...perhaps,at the 2nd or 3rd month next year...no exact date has been clarified yet..somehow,she just wanted to have a brief idea on which boutique to choose,what packages available...yada,yada....So,thats how we end up for 3 hours there eventhough it hadn't felt that long....

The boutique owner,was so nice and warmth and was willing enough to entertain any question from the amateurs like us...Thanks Kak Sha...(kitaorg mmg banyak mulut,,,hahaha)...we made our way there with reference from Kak Aniem,a newly wed last October...we were so amazed by the design of the dais(pelamin),its one of a kind,I think (hehehe)..thus,we felt like we really need to check out the boutique...so,here we were...

The boutique,Shaz's Wedding, could be considered as a one stop center for those who don't want to be bothered by inability to make choice of each aspect of the wedding(for example;dais,hantaran,catering,apparels and etc)...well,this is a must for you to check out..and as far as I could tell you,the satisfaction is guaranteed.(Okay...after this,nk mntak upah promote kt Kak Sha...hahahaha)...for more details you may to contact the owner itself here.

After finishing the initial discussion with Kak Sha,we went to have our lunch at about 3 o'clock and that was after misses tummy had become very grumpy.huhuhuhu...and to that,we feast on the mouth-watering chicken chop at Gemilang Restaurant.Spent another 1 hour and a half there catching up on each others stuff.Now,we felt like don't want to end the meeting as there were still much to chat about....well,maybe some other time guys...thanks anyway for the girls day out....There goes another day of my 'unemployed' life...yes...I haven't secured myself a permanent job yet...loser me...anyways,finally I made an entry now....hahaha(x susah kalau rajin kn!!!sile angguk skrg sebab sy suruh!!!) YEAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

So,lets wrap up...getting sleepy now...bye

BERAKAR

Dear buku,

Dah lama saya xdgr term ni....usually,the term is used among me and my dear friends....for example;

Si A : wei,sorry ek lambat....(while displaying the most stickiest grin of all...actually referring to kerang busuk...hahaha)

Si B : lame la gak...dah berakar segale....(please be aware if that term is used or else more firing-words would smacked you out!!!!!)


conclusion is,berakar tuh menunjukkan masa yg sgt lama which very similar to me. It has been so long since I made an entry here,almost a month!!! sgt tak bagus saya ni kan? I tried so hard to commit to this blog, but it seems like the more I try, the difficult things get on me....sigh.....

However,browsing thru my friends' blogs has really motivated me to click the 'New Post' button,delivering anything that comes across my mind,without any specific motive......just like my dear sis said to me once,'a blog is where you pour everything in your mind without having to think twice '...and I am pretty sure what she means is you have to be yourself,no need of pretending to appear perfect,good with words and most of all be truthful!!! and here I am,being honest and proudly claim that this entry is motiveless which equals to senseless......SORRY for the not-so-nice-truth....


Anyway,a lot had happened lately...starting with the job,relationship,course,important decisions to be made and so many more.....kinda unbearable!! Oh!May The Almighty lead me the right path....


Talking bout' my job,the substitution period is nearly coming to end,officially on Wednesday but I have to finish it sooner than that coz I got a course to attend...so,my last day at school will be on Sunday with the students are sitting for their final exams,before their good,waited school holiday....I reckon it will be a little bit awkward of not having to do the teachings anymore since the noisiness,naughtiness,and illogical-but-funny-questions of that young,innocent and cute kiddies have been my daily routine from day 1 I was there.They are surely be part of life stories to be told later to my children....goodbye guys....May u lead a better and great life ahead and become an educated human,not just living in your beautiful dreams....pray for u....


But then, who knows I might come back there,substituting again or perhaps as a recognized teacher....who can tell that,no?
Look how motiveless this entry guys, not entirely related topics it included...hopefully,it will happen this time....no other time...or else I might be a damsel in distress by then..hahaha

So,lets put this entry to an end before any of u'd be dying out of boredom and I'll be accused to be a blogger-killer...(the senseless is turning into the crappy imaginative thoughts)


The End.......

BYE-BYE bestie!!!

Dear buku,

Sayer sgt happy coz finally I got to meet the long-lost bestie, Cik Awe deary...even going thru' quite a long delay...I'm glad it happened...zillions of thank to her for never giving up on me..I mean it,Thanks dear....
And as we chatted to each other, it was like reminiscing of our little girls,childhood memories....those days when we shared most of our dreams...bout' what we would be when we grow up, how we would dress if EVER we go to prom night(HAHAHA,yeah it's silly but trust me,its a wonderful feeling)....and not to mention the kind of guy we are interested in.....yep! we were those typical school girls that never dream anything but a mushy,fairy-tale like future
Only now, we are no longer talking on that dreamy ideas...kami dah matured okay!
But,having said that, sgt gembira kerana sgt lama tidak jumpa...as far as I could remember,last time we met was almost six years ago....kn dah kata sgt long-lost tuh!!!huhuhu....
Dia xpernah berubah, masih sorg teman yg sgt bubbly,happy-go-lucky...ader jer benda yg dia mau gelak... 1 new thing bout' her is she wears an eye-glasses now...sgt srupa dgn maknye..yeah,i know u heart ur mak,awe....
She came with her siblings whose no longer that same kiddies I know...dah besar budak2 tuh...and with the addition of little cutie Hawa Annur which happened to be just like her sis.u guys ni mcm photostat je tau...huhuhu
And,dont know why,it felt kinda relief and easy feeling deep inside because I know I never lost that bestie no matter where she's studying now (Indon tuh kire jauh ar kan?)...the same person whose I had my childhood laughters with...and I'll continue to be...alhamdulillah..
itu pasal la, malam td jumper trus sayer wat entry nih...yer,sayer tau sayer bukan blogger contoh yg akan hapdate setiap hari...heh!..nk wat camaner...
Well, hopefully the frenship between us'll never change dan kami akan selalu jumper...huhuhu

BTW, cik awe...thanks for coming eventhough tomorrow u'll catch ur flight to K.L...gud luck for ur exams...nanti nk msk clinical kn?bestnyer...
take care k!
Jumper raya nanti!
Loads of luv...

Mohon mengerti

Dear buku.....

Letih yang amat bila ketidakserupaan itu disalah tafsir....
Sedih sungguh kerana ketidak sempurnaan itu jadi musuh
Hati kecil berdetik, mana mungkin dalam dunia
Selagi yang namanya manusia mampu kena dalam segala hal

Aku bukan sang penglipurlara....
Yang bisa melagukan cerita ceria sentiasa
Aku hanya si sepi
Ditakluk derita rahsia,misteri duka
Yang mengerti mungkin setia
Yang tak endah,semakin menyasah
Membuat lelah....
Auta apa lagi perlu ku putar
Untuk membalut cela
Mengasing lukisan benar
Tampakkan yang biasa
Ingin ku laung jerih
Biar berderai letih
Ingin ku sebar risau
Biar hilang kacau
Tuhan...
Ini perlu,
agar tatihanku tegar
Jiwaku besar

*Allah s.w.t tidak akan memberi dugaan melainkan yang mampu ditanggung hambanya*