THANKS !!

Dear buku,

* smile * Ngeheeee...I couldn't stop smiling for now...let me enjoy this wonderful moment, okay?...*keep smiling*
Well, I'm not in love or anything might relate to it,mind you...it's just about a tiny,less important thing for most people I must say. Yet, is able to keep me smiling for quite sometime..Thanks,you
Now I could go to sleep and dream something happy and hoping for more good things coming my way...Thanks,Allah

** Yaya is a girl who easily excited and pleased over small things ** =D

WHY o WHY

Dear buku,

Why o Why? I thought I posted a comment for the entry and only waiting for the approval of the blog owner to be published. But as I browsed back to the blog to check on the owner's comment towards mine earlier....stated that is still no comment yet for the particular entry...what happened?????I thought I posted a comment just now...and I begin to realize maybe the owner of the blog himself, didn't approve the comment I made about the article...maybe....but WHY?????...at least tell me why...have I done wrong, or mistreating you???huh!!! YOU!!!!!!! erghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

*sigh*

Well, okay then..it's your right anyway...to be selective of whom could give comments to any of your entry,guess I need to respect that from now on...not like those few weeks which I could just drop any comment suits to my liking...not anymore...
I apologize for anything I done that makes you upset...sorry...and what ever it is,I will always admire your beautiful thoughts and stories...GOOD LUCK,you...

****hush this uncomfortable feeling away,for I need to withstand through this journey of mine***

GUGUGAGA GIRLS

Dear diary,

The outing today with the usual girls and the usual fun!! That was our so-called farewell party as Mimi and Ellie will be pursuing their studies soon. Oh!my...already missing them now as I reminisce back the hoo-haa together along the unemployed period, temp job as substitute teacher and unemployed again....HAHA!! What a fun we had...Thanks guys for being such great companies through those ups and downs...
The event today included the 'unplanned in-advance birthday party'[did I put that correctly?] for this spontaneous girl,Miss Ellie....HAPPY BECOMING BIRTHDAY,mek.lol...May the days to come showered with more great things....and yes,make new friends in Shah Alam okay?Mimi too...
And,Ina whose recently engaged and in preparation for her solemnization day on the Valentine's Day...pray for your happiness always.LUV u guys....xoxo..


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CLUELESS

Dear buku...

Another day passed as I am still wondering or precisely giving thousands thought of pursuing the masters..it even something that I would be thinking right before I begin my journey to Lala Land...(of course soon after the doa's recited)
It actually more on why I am desired to do so....well,initially because I got nothing else to do obviously, for I am unemployed...not that I am too reluctant to find any job that could compliment my degree....but I guess I have this personal reason [SOLID] in not attending the job interviews called to me....and eventually,as days turn to months and a year it would be as soon as the 31 December hits the 2010 and people scream HAPPY NEW YEAR,follows by the gigantic,amazing fireworks out to the sky while I'll be adding that 1 year to my current age...gosh!!! I am freaking out,ya!!...Hence,why I need to do something with my life now...NOW!!!...to make it worst, the people I used to hang out with chatting for hours, laughing , try out new makan place...and yada2 are actually moving their life..and I'll be here still unsure of what I am going to do in my life...trust me,if I were given a chance to choose,I'd rather killing those spare time by reading books I have not had the chance to put my hands on, from one bookstore to another..HAHA,silly me..but that would not to be happened,right?..coming to my sense,I figured that maybe this is the right time to be serious in my life...and the idea of pursuing masters popped up..besides,some of my ex-schoolmates are doing the same,so,why not I??...a few forms printed,some are applied through the Net...just to show that I am actually making my way there...SERIOUSLY,sorry if you guys are feeling uncomfortable for having to read all these,I was making this as discreet as possible..hahaha...now you could get back to anything you are working on; eating, blog walking, moving your life[so sarcastic]......

THE PROPOSAL

Dear buku,

Today: Sooooo...exhausted mentally because of failure to brainstorm any inspiring

idea to construct the required proposal for Master's Degree.....ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!

HELP! help! HeLp!....

This particular hour: Even more tense, knots & whatnot developed, still fail to take any initiate step to complete the proposal....now already getting sleepy thus stopping any attempt verbally or non-verbally regrading the proposal..

heh!!!! NUMBNESS infection.....

HUJAN (bukan indie band)

Dear buku,

It is another rainy day which has hit the country mainly East Coast...not to say that I hate the rain for in a way, it brings some peaceful along with the downpour...listening to the dripping sounds chorusing to make their own music and somehow the rain managed to shed away any pain at your heart even a little bit,as in washing them...I think..

I wonder that's why I always wait for the rain to pour...so that,it could rinse away all those sad episodes in order for me to regain,getting strong enough to face another challenging day...some might say I am a fragile person...too weak to handle the drawbacks of the life...not that I didn't try people,guess there's so much to handle which makes me longing for something to avoid me weeping over....oh,RAIN is needed here...
It could also serve as substitution of tears by just looking the rain pouring before my eyes...how rain means a world to me...excuse myself for being such a pathetic, misusing the God's beautiful creation for granted...but as long as I'm not causing any harm to others,it will remain as it is...

*** I count my blessings and I push the blues away ***

~missing~

Dear buku,

Saya dah buat lagi...'menggagalkan' diri untuk tulis entry secara rutin...ampun!!!
But, too lazy to do any comical explanation or excuse...yeah2...SAYA MEMANG MALAS!!!
Anyway, suddenly missing the besties so much especially listening to certain songs that invited such emotion even more...sob3...
A result from missing those moments of idiotic , craziness , chaotic back in then student's life!!
I miss my girls so much!!! Okay, now I'm being annoying...well,please bare with it until you are told not to do so...which,NEVER!! (PLEASE BE NOTED THAT THE AUTHOR CURRENTLY IS HAVING A SERIOUS AILMENT CALLED SYNDROME INSTABILITY)
Above all that, the entry is meant to share 1 of the songs that touch my heart very well...so I should just do so...
The song title is " Hold On" sung by Michael Buble,a major huge fan of him lately besides the ailment just now..so,here it is guys...May you enjoy it as much as I do...


p/s: to my girls out there,anywhere you are,may find only the blisfulness in every moment of your life...do cherish the memories shared together!! Take Care...

HELLO

Dear buku,

A BIG Hello I must say for the failure to do frequent entries meaning I haven't visiting the buku for quite a time.My bad...apologize...but still,I really can't promise making post as much as I want to....too many barriers(eleh,totally denial walhal aku yg malas,heh)

Anyways,there were many things could be my subjects for the post....unfortunately,(again,a fragile defence...LOSER)..didn't feel like talking about them...
Well,enough about the distracted story of how lazy I am...(ESCAPISM)

Today, I went to a wedding boutique along with my friends,Cik Mimi and Cik Ellie.Mind you,I am not getting married if that popped in your mind!!! Its Cik Mimi,she was the one that will get married...perhaps,at the 2nd or 3rd month next year...no exact date has been clarified yet..somehow,she just wanted to have a brief idea on which boutique to choose,what packages available...yada,yada....So,thats how we end up for 3 hours there eventhough it hadn't felt that long....

The boutique owner,was so nice and warmth and was willing enough to entertain any question from the amateurs like us...Thanks Kak Sha...(kitaorg mmg banyak mulut,,,hahaha)...we made our way there with reference from Kak Aniem,a newly wed last October...we were so amazed by the design of the dais(pelamin),its one of a kind,I think (hehehe)..thus,we felt like we really need to check out the boutique...so,here we were...

The boutique,Shaz's Wedding, could be considered as a one stop center for those who don't want to be bothered by inability to make choice of each aspect of the wedding(for example;dais,hantaran,catering,apparels and etc)...well,this is a must for you to check out..and as far as I could tell you,the satisfaction is guaranteed.(Okay...after this,nk mntak upah promote kt Kak Sha...hahahaha)...for more details you may to contact the owner itself here.

After finishing the initial discussion with Kak Sha,we went to have our lunch at about 3 o'clock and that was after misses tummy had become very grumpy.huhuhuhu...and to that,we feast on the mouth-watering chicken chop at Gemilang Restaurant.Spent another 1 hour and a half there catching up on each others stuff.Now,we felt like don't want to end the meeting as there were still much to chat about....well,maybe some other time guys...thanks anyway for the girls day out....There goes another day of my 'unemployed' life...yes...I haven't secured myself a permanent job yet...loser me...anyways,finally I made an entry now....hahaha(x susah kalau rajin kn!!!sile angguk skrg sebab sy suruh!!!) YEAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

So,lets wrap up...getting sleepy now...bye

BERAKAR

Dear buku,

Dah lama saya xdgr term ni....usually,the term is used among me and my dear friends....for example;

Si A : wei,sorry ek lambat....(while displaying the most stickiest grin of all...actually referring to kerang busuk...hahaha)

Si B : lame la gak...dah berakar segale....(please be aware if that term is used or else more firing-words would smacked you out!!!!!)


conclusion is,berakar tuh menunjukkan masa yg sgt lama which very similar to me. It has been so long since I made an entry here,almost a month!!! sgt tak bagus saya ni kan? I tried so hard to commit to this blog, but it seems like the more I try, the difficult things get on me....sigh.....

However,browsing thru my friends' blogs has really motivated me to click the 'New Post' button,delivering anything that comes across my mind,without any specific motive......just like my dear sis said to me once,'a blog is where you pour everything in your mind without having to think twice '...and I am pretty sure what she means is you have to be yourself,no need of pretending to appear perfect,good with words and most of all be truthful!!! and here I am,being honest and proudly claim that this entry is motiveless which equals to senseless......SORRY for the not-so-nice-truth....


Anyway,a lot had happened lately...starting with the job,relationship,course,important decisions to be made and so many more.....kinda unbearable!! Oh!May The Almighty lead me the right path....


Talking bout' my job,the substitution period is nearly coming to end,officially on Wednesday but I have to finish it sooner than that coz I got a course to attend...so,my last day at school will be on Sunday with the students are sitting for their final exams,before their good,waited school holiday....I reckon it will be a little bit awkward of not having to do the teachings anymore since the noisiness,naughtiness,and illogical-but-funny-questions of that young,innocent and cute kiddies have been my daily routine from day 1 I was there.They are surely be part of life stories to be told later to my children....goodbye guys....May u lead a better and great life ahead and become an educated human,not just living in your beautiful dreams....pray for u....


But then, who knows I might come back there,substituting again or perhaps as a recognized teacher....who can tell that,no?
Look how motiveless this entry guys, not entirely related topics it included...hopefully,it will happen this time....no other time...or else I might be a damsel in distress by then..hahaha

So,lets put this entry to an end before any of u'd be dying out of boredom and I'll be accused to be a blogger-killer...(the senseless is turning into the crappy imaginative thoughts)


The End.......

BYE-BYE bestie!!!

Dear buku,

Sayer sgt happy coz finally I got to meet the long-lost bestie, Cik Awe deary...even going thru' quite a long delay...I'm glad it happened...zillions of thank to her for never giving up on me..I mean it,Thanks dear....
And as we chatted to each other, it was like reminiscing of our little girls,childhood memories....those days when we shared most of our dreams...bout' what we would be when we grow up, how we would dress if EVER we go to prom night(HAHAHA,yeah it's silly but trust me,its a wonderful feeling)....and not to mention the kind of guy we are interested in.....yep! we were those typical school girls that never dream anything but a mushy,fairy-tale like future
Only now, we are no longer talking on that dreamy ideas...kami dah matured okay!
But,having said that, sgt gembira kerana sgt lama tidak jumpa...as far as I could remember,last time we met was almost six years ago....kn dah kata sgt long-lost tuh!!!huhuhu....
Dia xpernah berubah, masih sorg teman yg sgt bubbly,happy-go-lucky...ader jer benda yg dia mau gelak... 1 new thing bout' her is she wears an eye-glasses now...sgt srupa dgn maknye..yeah,i know u heart ur mak,awe....
She came with her siblings whose no longer that same kiddies I know...dah besar budak2 tuh...and with the addition of little cutie Hawa Annur which happened to be just like her sis.u guys ni mcm photostat je tau...huhuhu
And,dont know why,it felt kinda relief and easy feeling deep inside because I know I never lost that bestie no matter where she's studying now (Indon tuh kire jauh ar kan?)...the same person whose I had my childhood laughters with...and I'll continue to be...alhamdulillah..
itu pasal la, malam td jumper trus sayer wat entry nih...yer,sayer tau sayer bukan blogger contoh yg akan hapdate setiap hari...heh!..nk wat camaner...
Well, hopefully the frenship between us'll never change dan kami akan selalu jumper...huhuhu

BTW, cik awe...thanks for coming eventhough tomorrow u'll catch ur flight to K.L...gud luck for ur exams...nanti nk msk clinical kn?bestnyer...
take care k!
Jumper raya nanti!
Loads of luv...

Mohon mengerti

Dear buku.....

Letih yang amat bila ketidakserupaan itu disalah tafsir....
Sedih sungguh kerana ketidak sempurnaan itu jadi musuh
Hati kecil berdetik, mana mungkin dalam dunia
Selagi yang namanya manusia mampu kena dalam segala hal

Aku bukan sang penglipurlara....
Yang bisa melagukan cerita ceria sentiasa
Aku hanya si sepi
Ditakluk derita rahsia,misteri duka
Yang mengerti mungkin setia
Yang tak endah,semakin menyasah
Membuat lelah....
Auta apa lagi perlu ku putar
Untuk membalut cela
Mengasing lukisan benar
Tampakkan yang biasa
Ingin ku laung jerih
Biar berderai letih
Ingin ku sebar risau
Biar hilang kacau
Tuhan...
Ini perlu,
agar tatihanku tegar
Jiwaku besar

*Allah s.w.t tidak akan memberi dugaan melainkan yang mampu ditanggung hambanya*

~ kisah cinonit ~

Nama penuh : Nur Illya Syazwani bt. Roslan
Tarikh lahir : 25 Jun 1986
Tempat lahir : pahang Darul Makmur
Tempat anda dibesarkan : Besut Terengganu

1.Siapakah nama kawan rapat anda sewaktu kecil?

• Nadiah Romeli (sy rs dier sgt understanding time kcik dulu....chewah...mcm beso bnar plak prob aku time tuh) tp,siyes,die sgt baik...kire a sweet innocent child la
  

2. Apakah permainan masa kecil yang anda ingat?

• Selambut/batu seremban, ting-ting, ta-tiang,yada2...
  

3.Kalau anda bergaduh dengan kawan anda..apakah kata kata yang anda nyatakan pada mereka?

• Biarla,xse doh saim nge dio....(ok,kate je la aku loser,xkesah)
  

4.Di kawasan manakah yang menjadi tempat faveret anda bermain?

aku dok quarters sekolah,jd no choice kt situ gak la aku main pun....kalo kaki aku pnjg sket,mak aku ngah mood baik,..smpai la aku ke kediaman Cik Hawa,men rollerblade...

5.Apakah cita cita anda masa kecil?

• Doktor,doktor dan doktor..(ye,aku sgt gilekan series ER dulu,skrg tukar Grey's Anatomy) hahaha

6.Apakah kartun atau rancangan tv yang anda gemari dan masih ingat sampai sekarang?

• Tomatoman, Sailormoon,DragonBall.....semue katun pn aku tgk...aku kaki t.v terkemuka...
  

7.Makanan ringan apakah yang akan anda borong di kedai?

• Cikedis yg brharga 10 sen-kaler oren,rs cm sayur (tgk, aku da didik diri aku jd vegetarian dr kecil-kecilan) huahuahua
  

8.Nyatakan seorang rakan zaman kanak kanak anda yang anda teringin sangat nak jumpa sekarang..

• Hawa Fatihah Che Mat Su (even dia tggl xbrape jauh pn dr umah aku,tp aku da xjmper dier dlm 6 tahun ni...)
  

9.Apakah gelaran anda masa kecik?

• Soya (abg aku kasi,naughty ya amat insan tuh)
  

10.nyatakan seberapa banyak rakan bloger anda yg anda ingin tau zaman kanak kanaknya..

• semua pun aku nak tau....bley wat ala autobiography kn? jd,sile la share korg nyer childhood moments ye!
  

cik ellie,"THE TAGGER"

hahahaha...mesti manusia itu gembira hentak2 kaki kerana tlah mnjd title postku...bestkn? rs cm flying2 x? hahaha lg...padan sgt la dgn minah ni yg suka memanjangkan tag miliknya ke snarai ahli di'tag' yg sentiasa sama...papepom,,,thanks ek cik ellie...i'm honoured to do so

1. Berapa umur anda?
umo sy da c manis 23 tahun & 2 bulan....

2. Anda berasal?
Pahang Darul Makmur

3. Berapa adik beradik anda? Anak yang ke? Brp lelaki n perempuan?
5 org.anak ke-2.
2 teruna
3 dara

4. Sekolah terakhir anda?
SMK tg.mahmud

5. Bila terakhir anda memotong rambut?
last month,and I bragged to everybody how in love I am with it....

6. Shampoo apa yang anda gunakan sekarang?
head & shoulders.....sayer rs ader effect angin kuat lps paki shampoo tuh....best siot...try2

7. Anda gemar menjahit? Kalau tidak nyatakan sebab
jahit manik je la....

8. Jika duduk di rumah, adakah anda suka menghias diri
pehal lak nk 'decorate' lebey2....karang mak aku tunjal kepala lak....tp,untk future husband;who knows? btol kn cik ellie

9. Apakah kerja rumah yang paling malas anda hendak lakukan?
bangun pagi...mau tido,tido dan tido lg...muahahaha

10. Soalan terakhir...bagi 5 kenangan MANIS yang tak dapat anda lupakan sampai bila bila
aiyak,,,pehal byk ngat ni....
a) sy da grad....
b) sy xpernah hilang kwn2 best sayer...
c) dpt main mata ngan org yg sy suka...hahaha....mmg aku gatal
d)feeling masa 1st time dpt music box; bntuk mesin taip,kaler purple....rs cam princess negara mn tah
e) 1st time dipanggil cikgu walau hanya jd cikgu ganti...terasa mulia,suci & wibawa gler ah time tuh

haaa...maka demikian sajelah entry ni....

jumpa lagi.....

dear buku......
yes,finally we meet up again....missing the feeling damn much....nway,hoping + praying that the feeling hanging there in a way that i'll be able to online for a long period,InsyaAllah....
tomorrow, the holy month, Ramadhan is officially around....days of fasting,nights of tarawih,dawns of sahur....gheee...i'm excited....very much....
i dont know if its only me,but i kinda have a different feeling for this special month for the muslims.ok,every muslim does feel the same way...however,personally for me Ramadhan is a month that my view on everybody change,even not a total change still,it's there...i mean people is focusing more on doing good deeds, being a little bit more considerate,tolerate almost in everything...isnt it great??? my love for Ramadhan has already bloomed....

The stories around my house would be the next best thing to tell.....(hahaha)....for sure it starts as early as the sahur begins....banging on the doors,waking up for sahur has always been the most annoying thing for Ummi and for sure,ME...then,the noons would turn into mellow and sleepy ones ...however,the faces will lighten up when it comes to 'food hunting' for berbuka...from one bazar to another bazar...Jerteh to Kg.Raja...yes,,,the adrenalin pumping is likely a must here...besides,the temptations are unbelievable...hahaha.....above all that,we are always enjoying performing the terawih,even it is rarely for us to fulfil the 21 rakaat,indeed we are looking forward for it..InsyaAllah

And this Ramadhan also a test for me as it is my first time being a teacher,okay..a subtitute one...now i am thinking to what extend my patience will be tested during this month,handling the tantrums of my students....i really need all guts in the world to be with me...pray for me...whatever happens,the holiness of Ramadhan must be uphold at any cost...i know i can do it...huhuhuhu

Well, that's a brief view and some stories to share about Ramadhan...i bet u all have the same too..more exciting and interesting...no doubt...

And tonite will be our very first nite of terawih,lets all visit the masjid and fulfill the needs and hopeful all the 21 rakaat,every night of the Ramadhan...
May it be the most meaningful month that will educate and permit us to be a better person for every month not just the Ramadhan.InsyaAllah....
Happy Fasting to all....

A.B.C

A.B.C???? sayer pom xtau naper I begin the entry with those letters.....ok..maybe because of these feelings I am having now....erm...sayer rase ; gembira + resah + berdebar + takut + geram....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! maka jadilah A.B.C like Air Batu Campur...bercampur2 smpai xleh explain...uit????Complicated ek sayer ni...sory2...mari sayer xplain naper(hamik ko,dengarla smpai naik menyampah)

GEMBIRA
Hahahaha...Ketawa dulu,bg terasa kegembiraan tuh...cpat2..hayati perasaan sayer ni...
Sayer gembira sbab ari ni Makcik Lela call sayer siang td...ha! siapa Makcik Lela tuh? Hebat bnar beliau bisa menggembirakan hati insan tuh,kan?...OK2, beliau telah jadi savior sayer kerana telah 'menamatkan' zaman penanaman hanggur sayer....Yeay2! maka sayer gumbira nih...sengih xhingat...I GOT A JOB even its only a temporary job, it cant bother me..
all hail for Yaya...chewah, sok sayer akan jadi pelita. what???!!!!! pelita????duhhhh...cubaan memetaforakan kerjaya baruku tuh...i like...i'm going to be a TEACHER,guys!!!!!! hows that???

RESAH
referring to above matter,ia telah meresahkan sayer jua...PULAK...
ye la, sayer resah kerana ini 1st time sayer yg menakutkan..GRRRRRRR..macam maner nk jd cikgu??? HeLP ME!!!! ok, even UMMI yg tercinta ku itu ialah pelita SEJARAH (heh,xsuda2)..tp sy tetap keresahan...sayer terpikir;
1). macam mana nk tgk muka murid2 ku nanti...ok,sayer tau ngan mata tapi apa bentuk pandangan sayer perlu beri, pandangan penuh kasih sayang ker(chewah,,,cm gatal lak)...,wat2 garang ker(aiyok,anak org tuh), OR blurrrrrr...
2). metadologi pengajaran aper nak pakai????...kedengaran keguruan ek!!! nyamapah..
3). truly, sayer LOST!!!!!

there you are,,,,perkara2 yg meresahkan sayer.....

BERDEBAR
errrrr....

TAKUT
eh,,,,malaslah mau xplain sebab keduanya sama jek ngan resah tuh, tp sajer sayer tambah kasi panjang sket entry nih,lgpun,prasaan sy kan bercampur,nuff said...ceh,malas punyer budak...ekekeke..semua org tau fakta tuh...

GERAM
haaaaaa,,,,,yg ni sayer perlu xplain kerana sayer mmg geram...xcayer? mari sayer kasi tau...
kegeraman ini berpunca drpd 'cik fatty' yg sibuk melekat sekeliling diri ini...alah, lemak la tuh...which equals to baju da xleh nk muat....ok2,sekrg sayer da geram sambil malu nih! TUTUP MUKA....inila akibat ke'best'an me la-la kan diri di homey sweet home....
huhuhu...cubaan menyalahkn rumah yg mmg steady innocense tuh...alahai....tetiba sayer rasa nk pecut satu kampung(buang tebiat plak ek!) bagi menghalau cik fatty sekelian..pergi2,syuh2,blah2
tu la kau,makan xhingat,time ni baru nk lari2..sob3...padan la muka ku....
tiba2 gak,sayer membuat azam untuk memanfaatkan static bike yg selama ni menjadi persinggahan baju2 n towel...hahaha...siap bajet nk cycle braper minit lg..aish...leh cayer la tuh budak tuh....
yg paling xleh blah ialah budak ni jugak telah berhasrat membajetkan jumlah butiran nasi yg akan di'ngap' oleh mulutnya...hahaha..gelak hadirin ,gelak kan dier...mmg kelakar tuh...
xper2, sayer akan berusaha kerana sayer perlu pakai baju...heh,mmg la..tidak,bukan2..sayer xnak jdi 'hulk' ewwww....sgt malu...JANGANNNNNNNNNNNNN....

ok2, kita tunggu dan lihat je nanti berjaya atau tidak 'CIKGU YAYA'...ekekeke gedik tol nk letak cikgu kt dpn tuh...doa2 kan sayer ye...erm....dah la, sayer mau iron baju yg semestinya masih muat okeh,jgn byg sayer da jadik hulk pd 1st day...nononono,,xsnonoh tuh...
xsuker2....cikgu xsuker...ekekeke

p/s: May Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad rest in peace and condolences for her family on the demise...Al-Fatihah...

GAGAL

Dear buku,
Baru td saya mcm terpaku kejap dgn letak duduk 1 perkara....mcm2 perasaan dtg waktu tuh...erm...ader sedih, luka, pasrah..xleh nk define punyer prasaan pun ader...*sigh*...
Tiba2, saya tringat, best fren pernah ckp;"kalau kita x bgtau orang aper kita rasa,takut nanti smpai bile2 pun org takkan tau aper prasaan kite"....YA! mmg btol aper dier ckp...dan sekarang,waktu ini saya sedang merasainya....pahit dan KELIRU! saya sedang mengira pada siapa perlu saya letak salah ni...tapi,xberjaya...Lalu minda saya memutar kembali saat pertama itu,peringatan telah saya beri pada diri saya sendiri, malah saya sering ulang kenyataan buatan saya itu supaya tidak sekali pun saya jadi lupa siapa diri saya...tapi, GAGAL....saya 'gembira' hingga saya punya harapan! padahal ianya juga rekaan saya sendiri, tiada 'guarantor'. Saya sedang ckp pd diri saya jgn menangis kerana itu janji peribadi saya, Tidak akan menangis untuk perkara seperti itu. Dan saya telah tunaikannya. tapi,saya tak mampu usir 'undefined feelings' ini.Atau mungkin dengan menangis,mereka akan pergi...mungkin....

Dear buku,
Saya juga mahu rasa menyesal tapi akal saya menepis,menyedarkan saya pada perjalanan putaran roda ini. Saya perlu patuh,HIDUP PERLU TERUS! Ya,saya perlu terima penetapan Yang Kuasa. Dia lebih tahu yang terbaik buat saya walau saya akan serik atau bosan dengan hal yang sedemikian. Malah saya mungkin akan mengelakkan diri saya terus...LOSER...saya terima itu. Waktu ini,saya hanya mampu memohon kekuatan dan meminta cahaya supaya saya dapat melangkah tenang.Tapi, yang saya risaukan nanti,bila saya bertemu mata dengan hakikat itu,masihkah saya bisa berpegang pada janji peribadi itu? Atau saya akan mempersoalkannya...Hanya masa yang tahu itu...Namun,sampai waktu itu, saya akan tetap senyum,bina kekuatan untuk hati saya supaya saya tidak sesekali nampak lemah pada hakikat itu....

Dear buku,
Rupanya 'pergi' itu yang sebenarnya...kembalinya tiada harapan untuk saya.Tak mengapa,saya tetap akan doakan kegembiraan buat hakikat itu...moga cahaya untuknya telah ditemui...
Jadi,saya perlu belajar semula bina kekuatan yang telah saya punyai dulu, biar saya tidak rapuh dengan satu hakikat kerana saya arif lebih banyak hakikat yang akan saya temui nanti......
Nah,sekarang saya perlu usir 'undefined feelings' ini! kerana mereka akan menggagalkan misi saya dan saya tidak mahu kalah @ gagal lagi.....Jadi, PERGI!

INI SATU ARAHAN!!!!!

Arahan? sp punyer arahan ni? hahahaha...its not even an order pom,but just 2 make u guys curious...if so,kalo x,xpela..biar yaya sorg2 jer...xkesah...[kemelalutan]...
anyways, this is a request from a dear fren, cik ellie on an award...srunuk ek dpt award...org nk bg amik je la..thanks ya! so here it is....

Write 5 interesting facts about the person who gave you this award

1. well,(with a villain's face)....hahahaha...she is a fun person to be with...u can talk almost everythin's with her(ceh3,kembang ek ko)

2.a down to earth person- never care enough 'bout what she's good at until you tell her so...(skrg promo aku baik plak)

3. we have been frens sinceeeee...FOREVER kot cos kecik knal dier, msk primary pom skelas smpai abis pastu stil kwn smpi skrg..amik ko,lmnyer kiter kwn cik ellie!

4.suker tenggelam-timbul...sikijap dio ado pastu xtau dier p maner....LOL...jgn mare!!!!

5. on top of that.....she is just happened to be 1 of my dear fren....

so,the facts're there,jd cik ellie"u have to accept them either u like or not!...yeah!!!!the DIctator's here,,,hahaha

Jot down 10 interesting facts about yourself of your hobbies
okay, inilah diriku!
1.i'm a forever DAY-DREAMER...it's free rite? he3

2.book-worm- leave me in an ocean of books,I'll be fine for HOURS!!!! kalo lapa pom, I cr buku psal makan! kahkahkah

3. sgt lembut hati- people tend to take advantage on me,unfortunately! HUMAN!!!!

4.super-duper SENSITIVE- bukn smpai xleh sentuh/paranoid ker aper ok! interestingly, it even makes me care more bout others...

5.very malas in updating this BLOG!!!!! opps....so sorry buku ku!

6.am putting a lot of efforts in beading work! ye la tuh yaya,who's u bluffing,huh?

7.6-months being unemployed and still being one!

8.very happy with my new hair cut currently...YEAY

9.mood-swinger-jgn takut plak mau borak ker,blanjer ker...Hahaha

10. i love to make frens....hey,jom kawan nk? secara drastik!!!!!

finally, there u go...abis gak..phew(skipping a few of the requested steps..kih3...cory mek ya)...pnat tol mau fikir to fill in the list...nway, I made it ye...HOORAY 4 yaya!!!!!
CLAP3.....thank u2...while holding the AWARD.... muahahaha

BurPPPPPPPPP....

Hahahaha...mesti sume kater yaya xsnunuh berkelakuan begitu...sori2...actually, yaya br je mengabiskan sebungkus(1 je tau..xtmbah2) nasi kukus i ckp u...Nasi + Ayam besar xhingat + sambal pedas yg amat + timun 4-5 ketul = KESEDAPAN HINGGA MENJILAT JARI, xluper kertas pembungkusnye skalik...haaaa...sila lap mulut itu...drooling kan? tau, itu pasal la yaya kehepian smpai leh wat 1 entry...kt2 budak yaya yg malas...haish...babab kang!

ok, smpi situ la psal ns tuh, kang lebey2 ksian la plak...silap2 wat amok,mintak nsik kukus...hahahaha...kekarutan suda datang!jeng3..dush2..xbley bla la dier ni
pe lagi nk citer ek? owh...haha...ting2(sinar2 mata cm kucing)....sy potong rambut..*wink2*...
xplan pun nk having cut actually,tp because of dearest UMMI suda ajak,pe salah kn? nk tolong bayar lg...tu yg i suker gler tuh...hahaha.muke cm miang jer...
so,pegi menapak masuk kdai tuh..pe name die ek...erm..NICE Saloon kot...sm cm nm dier,org kt lam kdai tuh pn nice gak,ader amoi,leng chai...hahaha...gatal! dush2..amik ko!!!
ok2...yaya mmg nk potong rmbut pun..da lame daa..smpi Ummi bebel, Ayin bebel..ckp je pandai,tp xwat2 gak..ntahnyer budak yaya ni..nyampah..
so,by hook or crook mmg my Ummi nk kasi potong gak ari tuh...uit..munyik cm seram la..cm dialog 'tok mudim' ek?..hep2 jgn melencong ek..
so,da dop baik punyer kt krusi tuh..tibe2 dtg la leng chai ni..aik? aku ingt ko ni tokey kedai ni..rupenyer pndai gak ko gunting rmbut ek...weh..da kdai dier..ikot suker la ek..ok2 amikla,gasakla..so dier 'belai2' la rmbut i ni(pehal cm nk goda aku jer) TIDAK2..yaya exaggerate jer..paham2 la...hahahaha...klakar ker tuh?
Dia amik la sikat tuh smbil tny "mau wash ka?"...so dgn konpidennyer..."Taknak"..eleh2 jual mahal lak minah ni...potong salah kang..padan muka ko!...he3..tibe2, die suggest plak " u xnak wat rebonding ker?"..WHAT??? xpenah trbyg pom nk meng'teknik' kn rmbutku ni..walo xcantek cm bintang shampoo tp sy sayang rambut sy..xperlu tu semue okay! kahkahkah berkobar bonar la plak dr ini...
Tp, dlm pada tuh c len chai tuh ckp,"rambut u kerinting"...oooo NOooo...u guessed wrong dear! ahaks...i xder gen rmbut kringting tau...tp xper la wat dono jer..assume tactic nk wat sale la tuh...huhuhuhuhu..
so, after discussed sikit lebey kurang + refer bnyk2 page gmbar fashion rmbut..." I nk yg ni "..
FINAL.Titik.The Verdict...amboi cm Iron Chef la plak...
so, yaya terpakse la tala kepala 1-2 jam...adoih..ngantuk pom ader...xper2 janji sy dpt fashion yg sy nak...pesen la sgt..

At last, senget sana,senget sini....siap la kepale i..opps bukan rambut sy...pusing kanan sket,kiri sket,kanan lagi..dah2 xyah cm aerobic plak ek..ringan sket kepala ni..rambut pun rs sihat sket...comfortable = nyaman = xsrabut..Thanks En. Leng Chai..ToCE2...kembang2 idong dier...cover weh,malu wa cakap lu...kahkahkah..
anyway, tercapai gak hasrat murni lg suci tuh..I got a new haircut and I'm loving it!padadapapa..Credits goes to UMMI...sayang UMMI...krg Angah da keje kiter pegi spa ek..my treat! alahai....bila la tuh ek?
Wallahuallam...

LAlaL@la..

haaa...sure wondering y lalala....yaya ngah hepi sebab ader org dtg meminang kah? atau yaya sedang syok kemain makan chocolate...salah2! semua salah! hahaha cm bgs jek,mls nk layan budak ni...owh tidak.going nutzzzz oledy...

actually, yaya teramat kebosanan yg menyebabkn yaya melalak cm Lan MUH....siap gayer ok! =P
bosan yg xdpt dikurangkan walo sedikit coz nobody here to entertain me...fellas' where u guys? missing the 'adeks' n besties damn much.....
perhaps, this is what happens when u r an unemployed girl...wuwuwuw kesian nyer...dah r keje tada, pastu dop bosan sorg2...UWAAAAAAAA....

try la gak intai2 Y.M list kot saper2 ader tp semue pom offline...wei,aku sorg je ker yg begini kesian(masih menangisi nasib diri)T______T

time ni la gak,otak menjadi kreatif mengorek2 idea(weh,kuar2!)secara paksaan.huhuhu..rs cm nk p wat milo panas bior kasi tido tak hingat ker
or nk download lagu yg penah n rs cm best tp umum mengetahui it wud take me hours to do so...REJECT!!!
or pegi wat house-keeping...oh,sori2 bukan offer cm megasale k,so sile ilangkan mate sinar2 tuh,heh ...i mean house-keeping my home sweet home ni la...tp logik ker...tgh mlm,eh silap dah pagi pom wat bende-alah tuh..yaya mengarut,yeay,MENGARUT!
sah2 xsesuai ms nmpknyer aktiviti tuh....
so the only option is to wat MILO hangat dan tido...hekeleh,yaya ko mmg nk yg tuh kan2..ngaku je la...ye2, sy mengaku bujang,eh bkn mengaku bahwa sy bosan dan malas..ha,amik ko..truth or dare!!

justeru(ingt lg essay SPM dolu2),mari join i wat MILO..ye..nyanyi lagu dier skali..together,minum MILO anda jadik sihat dan kuat..yeah,clap2...= hangat + chocolaty + best xleh lawan(yerk,prasan tahap tinggi nih)...
smoger yaya bole tido hence, ilangkan rs bosan xbley blah ni..wish me luck...ok2 gud note pom bley gak..i trime ...ngheeee

Dia pergi.....

Dear buku,

Hari ini...
Dia pergi....
Tak tahu bila Dia balik lagi...
Saya hanya mampu melihat...
Tak berdaya menghalangnya...
Dia melambai,
Tanda kepergiaannya...
Saya turut lambai...
Tapi, dalam hati saya doa...
Semoga semuanya selamat untuk
Dia...

Dia pergi...
Tapi, bila Dia kembali...
Saya harap Dia tahu semuanya..
Supaya saya boleh kongsi
Satu rasa..
Rasa gembira..

Dia pergi..
Saya yakin kami pasti jumpa lagi..
Jadi, saya tabahkan hati..
Tunggu Dia lagi...
Sambil mohon pada Yang Kuasa..
Kabulkan permintaan saya..

Dapat HADIAH!!!!

Haaaaaaa...sure semue ingt dr ini yg dpt adiah(i wish too)..tidak2..besday i pom xdpt paper..eleleh,meminta belas plak..tp,xcian ker..xper2,yaya tunggu KFC dr cik elli tersyg(sebb ditreat..hua3) nyum3,prasaan yg sgt lebey..owh tidak..khayalan tingkat tinggi tol...jatuh kang,padan muke ko..
anyway, menyambung entry smalam yg ditunggu2(cam konfiden jer ader yg tunggu)..actually, that hadiah belongs to my luvly dearest sista'...mau tau what's the present?!! let me tell u now..heh,cpat2 ar kasi tau nyampah tol dgn suprise xmnjadik tuh..
it's a CAR!!!!! amacam, happening kan? tau, saper2 dpt pom ckp gtu..paham2(eleleh,bajet konseler laks).congrats to Ayin for the big gift. naper dier dpt tp yaya xdpt? owh, bukan kerana dier teramat bertuah, tp sbb she's happened to be in need for the car desperately(metafora tol). ye la, dienyer campus ngan hostel is a bit too far sampai kn nek bus..(WaA..cm nk travel jp holiday ek!)so, pity her kalo asyik2 kene ulang-alik cmtuh. so, my BABA..the best father in the universe..heh cm wish father's day kn2?..suda2 ,sambong crite mu. Baba da bermurah ati belikn dier sebuah kete yg chumel n cost-effective; VIVA(perodua)..kaler SILVER. best woo i ckp u..heh tetibe lak ko yg excited ni pehal?..xpaham la ini budak..tp, seriously, very comfy n fuel-saving tau kete ni,siap mng award lg tuh..(ader contract ngan Perodua ker ko ni?)..we ols sunggoh xcited ntk tgk kete tuh smpi sanggup pg amik sendrik walopom kn tunggu pemasangan plat no.,cover tayar,psg wiper...punyer glojoh kan,,ee..xmalu ank dara nih..as soon as after everythin' mak nenek completed, kami pom ngan bagus smbil lambai2 kt abg2 'tukang pasang' tuh drove the car home. FYI, that kete has'nt got its road tax lg...hah..dara berani kan ktorg..ye2,mmg.suke tol ngan kete tuh..pakai gamble je ar..tp kami da siap ngan reasons mengarut untk 'dipersembahka'n kt encek polis kalo jumper..kalo jumper ar.Lucky us..the journey went so smooth that causing us laughing hysterically kerana hepi yg amat...(weh,ingat Allah weh)..bukak radio kuat2 smbil senget2 kepala..kiri kanan,kiri kanan..dan lagi..ha..tercabut gak krg..ader yg jadik 'haunted car' lak.xpasal..
That was pretty enjoyable though,cause Ayin had been waiting for soo00 long to own a car..alast, the waiting paid off. Now, die ngah kire2 nk ajak kwn tompang balik uni..ader plan wat kete sewa ke dek oi..ikot dier la..reta dier kan..jgn nyebok..syush2
Therefore, I am s0 happy for her, and hoping that it wud b a good booster for her getting excellent result..dier da janji..i xmemandai2 tau..AMIN..
so,dik..jg la leklok tau ur first car tuh ek...drive carefully..jgn nakal2..jgn luper smayang..wei,ni cm xder kaitan kot! ok2..i'm praying the best for u okay dear.
As for myself, xtau la biler nk ader kete sendrik..xper2 UMMI masih sudi pnjmkan ketenye..i jd driver la skrg..balas budi tau..heh3..Thanks Ummi...
ok ar, the story ends here kot, yaya mau p.k kete per nk beli (lg 10 tahun kot br beli)..pastu nk lukis,nk tampal kt dinding bilik,nk tgk ari2,pastu nk doa byk2...lalala nk kete pe ek...BMW?Ferrari? Mercedes? ahhh...semue je la.. =P...

TENSIONNNNNNNN

geramnyerrrrrrrrr.....broadband wat hal plak..bukn main sy byr(tipu!mak sy yg biayai,lol) ini plak jd nyer...gerammmmmmmmmm...
bto la kt cik ellie, bukan broadband lg dah tp..BERUKBAND..amik ko..nk chat ngan kwn2 tersyg pom xbley...uwaaaaaaa...
suda ar...tensen ini tlah wat sy dahaga,nk wat choco iced lar...tgk2...akibat gram yg melampau la ni..xper elok sket dr sy baling ini laptop kuar tingkap(btol ker aku mau wat cm tuh?uit?)...da xder cr len lg...ok..mau out dan wat air..taptaptap(kaki bunyik2 sebab marah)

Anonymous

naper ianye dikatekan Anonymous ? ok2, sebab sy ader mcm2 mau crite starting from creating the blog sampaila ke'hepi'an adek sayer krane mndpt sebijik adiah...wowowo..adiah? td xminat skrg br ko nk amik tau kn2?? hekeleh, tetibe lak emo...suda2..jgn mengeluarkan senjata setan itu...huhuhuhuhu

nway,xper2 let we take 1 step at a time..haik aku rs cm nyanyi lg plak..lalalala...xbley tomak2,nnti dop dlm friend list setan..huahuahua...tetibe ari ni amat take care hal itu...kalo da nm nyer minah lalut xabis2! rentikan la yaya keje tuh...cian, mengganggur kan..T___T

xper2,aku mmg sorg penganggur..lalalala(nyanyi lg,tnpe sgan silu,xpaham tol)
ok..sekian sj 1st time entry...alah,pendek pom xper..ikut suka jari i lar nk mcm mn pom(eh2,mengada2 lalu menggedik lak dr ni,uwekkkk) nway, more to come i xpect..
till then...

RE-making the blog

My buku,

Actually, this is not my 1st time having done the blog but different from the last time,it'll be more bout my life.

LIFE-----> myself, my family, thoughts,etc...yada2

not to forget, along with the 'urge' i developed by viewing others' blogs

[credits to Che Awa, Wanda,Aziyan...etc]

also being suggested by Cik Ellie( the unemployed companion)

above of that, i really think its the time for me to have it to chanel everythin'

~my anger, happiness,joy,junkies,love